I'm being punished indirectly.

Because I need to pay tithing.

No really.

So many many bad things happened to me in 2005.

January - I was chubby.

February - a friend dated an ex I still had a thing for. I know I know, not too big of a deal but it stung back then.

March - My family was stolen from me. This was on the 6th to be exact.

April - I started exercizing. AH WHY DOES EVERYTHING BAD HAPPEN TO ME?

May - I did something I knew I shouldn't have that will impact the rest of my life negatively forever.

June - I almost killed myself and 4 close friends.

July - I was too afraid to say no.

August - taken advantage of in my sleep. Borderline rape.

September - Had the worst boss of all time. Would not let me attend church.

October - rekindled with my stolen family. Cried myself to sleep every night.

November - my best friend from high school and only person who knew each and every dark secret about me died, and took those dark secrets to her grave.

December - Christmas.

I may be cynical. Maybe.
But I figured it out, I did. I'm being punished indirectly for not paying tithing. So... I'm going to pay tithing. And have a much better year.