I'm unfair.

He's stressed. That doesn't mean he doesn't love or care about me. I'm afraid he gets off to pornography more than he tries to be with me. That would be a problem, but I'm not sure if I'm just being paranoid because he never seems to want to be affectionate.

And he has been, he's obviously been trying to be more loving. Which is amazing considering how tired and stressed he's been lately. I appreciate it more than I show I do, I know he loves me. But is he still in love with me? I'm not so sure. I hate being emotionally vulnerable. Having my feelings so dependent on him is an awful feeling also. I feel like I'm taking a step I shouldn't be, because he isn't attracted to me right now anyway.

Should I wait around and see if that's how its going to be when this training is over? I hate to be condemned to a life without affection.